I know all the hopes you’ve googled
and how you’re sorting piles of leaves
to spell the answers you’d want to hear.
It falls to you to make it mean.
Deactivate your account. Don’t sign back in.
The Internet’s an immortal elephant
that holds a solid tungsten memory
of every monkey nut we feed it,
so leave out anything you really feel.
You must refine your searching phrases
if you want to find exact returns.
Don’t ever rely on feeling lucky
or accept the endless pages of results
to chance upon another love
that’s not quite right but close enough.